Diaries Dedicated to Deian

Dear Deian, I feel awful today. My friend forget me over a boy. I mean idk. haih

19:17 30 Nov Saturday Dear Deian,  I already told you about taekwondo right? Well, it is okay so far but not my legs. I found myself trying so hard to even walk like a hooman. Also, I join Lex Explorace just bcos not everyone join it. So, I had to. My legs hurt like hell. I wanna cry. I didn't even start study for my test this Tuesday.  I miss home, miss my lil sis, miss everything. Why did I dye my hair in this short sem? Oh I also dreamt of Adib, my twitter crush that I've been friend with for like 1 years i think.  In my dream, he is my boyfriend. He is so clingy and annoying. I had to carry him in my arm tho. What is this behavior, Pooja? He even asked me to buy him a bucket of Ice Cream that cost me RM 30!! I SHOULD NEVER SLEEP AGAIN IN THE EVENING

Dear Deian,                                         02:05 I'm currently watching Brave movie with my sister, Cica. I am feeling excited still. I just love how mysterious Eskandar is. I mean umm can I have a partner that really resemble him? I juust like the way he is.  I just you know, I just like his personality, ,,his characteristics. I mean urmmmmm this hit different than Hilman 1 and Hilman 2. ARGHHHHHGGGHHHHH i feel so soft and in love i dont know. But i like him. oh man i just hope i can buy one and reread it over and over. I really like Anjell for making such drop dead gorgeous heroes for me to fangirling. I just love them.  I want more book HUWAAAA I CAN'T WAIT FOR PESTA BUKU NEXT YEAR. yeaaaa cara eskandar sebut sunshine and sayang buatkan perut aku feel something. Rama2 terbang dalam perut. tiba-tiba blushiing. nak menjerit. oh my god save me.  I just love he...

Dear Deian,  Today, I invested my energy to cook a lot of things today. I made the rice, chicken soup, chicken black pepper, cucur manis and pancake. I try to make myself busy so I can sleep tight tonight. But somehow I can't. It is so hard. Maybe because I can't hold myself to sleep after zohor. ARGHHH what do I have to do with this insomnia?  It has been 4 years that I dont have problems to sleep at night. It is so hard. What do I have to do? You know I dont know why but Hannan is being so manja and loves to cry and so on. I feel so tired that sometimes I just want to slap her face. Annoying gila. Maybe this what was my mom felt before when I was at her age.  I repeat this again. I hate kids. I wish I never have to bear with kids in future. God I can't imagine. So, yeah my day are so boring and yeah today I finish episode 22 of the tale of nokdu. BESTTTTT!!! I really enjoy it altough the protagonist are so ugh damn annoying.  Best dee!! The hero does dress crossing...

Dear Deian,  Today, I cook fried rice and cucur manis bcos I feel that I wanted to. When I'm thinking on to decline doing something here, I will rethinking again. Does it worth it? Won't you miss doing this when you return back there? This is your chance to actually cook something. So, I be like yea. I can cook what ever that I wanted to eat. No more voltan issues. I have reread my novels and I remember well the character and the plot because I read it millions of time. Maybe I need to do the same to my law subject. Read it regularly in order for me to memorize all the fact. I am so scared. I got a memo that final result will be announce on 15 November. 2 Days before I return back to CFS. I am scared that I might not get good result because only I know how I did back then. I did bad for finals. I am scared that I barely can answer all the paper. I want to get exempted for both language. I dont want to go for language classes anymore. It is so tiring and stressful. I hope I am t...

Dear Deian, You will not believe how I act like stupid one for this entire 3 months in cfs. I liked a classmate of mine, M. He is not good looking enough to start with. Idk why I like him? Maybe because of his action and his attention towards me. I feel appreciated. I never got that attention from any men. Never once in my life other than my father. He shared with me his favourite song and we actually sharing the same earphone. That was the moment I started to like him. That song is from taiwan movie starring Darren Wang. I dont remember the title. Ugh. He and I was a team mate for assignment and we decided to discuss the assignments in library. At that time, my only friend who is a girl in that group can't attend the discussion. So there were just me, him and his friend. His friend told us that he already eat for lunch while both of us still starving. He made decisions for both of us to have lunch together in cafeteria at student centre. That was my first time eating the...

PERSUASIVE SPEECH (HOUSE CHORES ARE FOR BOTH GENDERS) Introduction As stated in Merriam Webster Dictionary, chores mean the regular or daily light work of a household or farm. Other than that, it also mean a routine task or job. We have been living our life believing that house chores are for women. People said,women are destined to be the ‘slave’ of the family. I mean how annoying is when men keep asking where their belongings are, demanding for drinks and so on. Why do we normalize this thing? So, today I will share to you why these things are for both genders. Content 1. Chores are for personal responsibilities. Both genders, male and female have the hands and legs. What makes the men, that we, women have to bared the burden just for you? Once you finish eating, wash your dishes. Do not wait for someone to do it for you. We have to realize that we actually have our self at the end of the day. Our mothers and sisters are not going to be with us forever. 2. It is the Sun...

Assalamualaikum and it is currently midnight and I'm struggling with this insomnia. I think maybe because of my sleep schedule that are not going well makes me feel like this. Honestly, I have end my likings to talk about men. They are purely disgusting in every aspect. So, I don't know how to like one in future. Think about it again. Why do you like him? Is it about his faxe or his height? I feel how materialistic we are that appearance is so importance for the sake of our eyes. I dont know but I always think about this. God damn Deian for reminding me that I still have this blog. Well, people wont know about this blog right? So, I think I will continue writing my thoughts here rather than doing it in twitter. I'll continue watching my k-drama