30 Nov

19:17
30 Nov
Saturday

Dear Deian, 
I already told you about taekwondo right? Well, it is okay so far but not my legs. I found myself trying so hard to even walk like a hooman. Also, I join Lex Explorace just bcos not everyone join it. So, I had to. My legs hurt like hell. I wanna cry. I didn't even start study for my test this Tuesday. 

I miss home, miss my lil sis, miss everything. Why did I dye my hair in this short sem?

Oh

I also dreamt of Adib, my twitter crush that I've been friend with for like 1 years i think. 

In my dream, he is my boyfriend. He is so clingy and annoying. I had to carry him in my arm tho. What is this behavior, Pooja?
He even asked me to buy him a bucket of Ice Cream that cost me RM 30!!

I SHOULD NEVER SLEEP AGAIN IN THE EVENING

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